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Crossing Back Over: The Practice of Owning and Accepting Bipolar Disorder

Brett’s most recent manic episode has derailed him from life as the director of operations at a prominent software start-up in Texas. He is now at home, fully dependent on his mother, and officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Brett is terrified. He has no guarantees on his long-term health, no understanding of how his medication works and is still dealing with hell-like anxiety, restlessness, mania, and depression.

Crossing Back Over: The Practice of Owning and Accepting Bipolar Disorder details Brett’s battle with taming the beast that is bipolar. Written in the same style as part 1 of his story, Crossover: A Look inside a Manic Mind, Crossing Back Over sheds light on what true recovery looks and feels like from a firsthand account.

No matter the environment, recovering from a serious event takes hard work, discipline, patience, and acceptance. Crossing Back Over allows the reader to peek behind the curtain of an individual determined to find a happy life, even with his chronic brain disorder. This book is valuable for anyone who is facing a deeply personal challenge.

Book Details

194 pages
November 2, 2020

About the Author

Brett Stevens

Brett Stevens is a thirty-one-year-old first-time author who has written this memoir describing his personal experience with Bipolar I disorder. This story started out as a therapeutic exercise to write a narrative of his life, integrating his childhood memories with the visceral accounts of recurrent major psychiatric illness in adulthood. Along the way, he discovered that he has hypermnesia: the incredible ability to remember personal life events with detailed accuracy. As a result, this first-person account details the evolution of psychosis and its impact on his behavior. He is able to recall mental status changes that are textbook definitions of referential thinking, and he describes visual and auditory hallucinations, incapacitating anxiety and paranoia, and grandiose delusions of power, influence, and control. Brett is the middle of three sons born to an affluent family who lived comfortably in an upper-middle-class neighborhood. He and his brothers attended the neighborhood public school, and all of them played varsity basketball. Their summers were focused on basketball camp, and they all inherited the motivation to achieve in athletics as well as academics. Brett considered himself to be an undersized point guard who had to work harder than his brothers to succeed at basketball. However, he was intensely competitive and found great satisfaction in working toward and achieving his life goals through his mantra borrowed from one of his coaches, “The players who work the hardest will gain the most. “Despite being derailed with three episodes, he finished college and has found success in three separate careers: professional poker, health club sales administration, and most recently, real estate. He has written a poker blog and developed an online program to teach others how to play. He also competes at amateur chess. He enjoys teaching and training others, and he is deeply committed to helping other people who struggle with Bipolar I disorder.